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It is going on 10 o’clock AM Thursday morning. This morning I got up around 8 o’clock AM. My doctor’s appointment was at 8:45 AM. We went and saw my new doctor and set up an appointment for a complete physical. Tomorrow I have to get some blood drawn at the hospital. I did not know there was so much to do to get a complete physical, so many appointments and places to go. But in the end we will know my state of health. I am sure I am fine, but there is nothing wrong in making sure. We have health insurance and I might as well use it.

Carol after coming with me to my doctor’s appointment left to take her mother to her doctor’s appointment.

I am still waking up to another day. I am down in the basement typing on my lap top. I have wireless now so there is no need to turn on my old noisy main computer. Down here in the basement it is dark and quiet. I have next to me a portable heater blowing on me to keep me warm. This morning when I got up there was snow on the ground. A layer of snow dust on the ground, nothing major. But it is icy cold and not a good day to take a walk in the woods.

Last night I watched the television show Life On Mars and went to bed. Carol had already gone to bed to read. Carol read and then turned off the lights.

music Apparat “Walls”

I mainly have been reading “We Become What We Worship: A Biblical Theology Of Idolatry” by G. K. Beale these days. I am out of it mentally lately. Well I have been reading the Bible. My goal for the year 2009 is to read through the Bible. It has been years since I have read through the Bible. I usually read here and there in the Good Book. So right now I am in The Book of Numbers in the OT. I try not to get into studying a portion of holy Writ but to read with the goal of spiritual transformation. I want to Hear the voice of God found in the Bible. “The word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.” Hebrews 4:12-13

I do not know what I will do today? I thought of going downtown for a mocha, but why? It is really too cold to go anywhere. I am safe here in our basement. (“My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.” Ps. 62:1,2)

I thought about writing some stuff I shared with my wife last night on New Covenant theology, but now it all seems pointless so I will close to wait on the Lord.

It is 10:10 AM Wednesday morning in the flow of existence. I am down in our basement writing on my lap top. I need to get wireless going so I can be on the internet when I am down here in the basement. I like it in the basement because it is like being in a bomb shelter. It is like being in a used bookroom in a mother womb.

I got out of bed around 8:15 AM this morning. I heard Carol coming home from work so I got up to greet her. I made myself a pot of coffee and Carol went to bed. I sat in the living room morning dreaming and then decided to go to my study and write in my personal diary. I then read “We Become What We Worship: A Biblical Theology Of Idolatry” by G. K. Beale and “An Old Testament Theology: An Exegetical, Canonical, And Thematic Approach” by Bruce K. Waltke with Charles Yu.

The last time I saw Carol she was laying in bed reading. She is off the next two nights. I wonder if my engine will work?

It is 10:20 AM Wednesday morning. I feel restless this morning. What I should do everything morning rain or shine is take a long walk. I need to move. I need to get my body in shape for death.

Last night there was nothing on television so I messed with my main computer and listened to music. I thought about having a private party, but why?

Carol got up last night around 6 o’clock PM. I cooked her some food for a meal. I shared with her my thoughts on Numbers 16, 17, and 18 for family worship. Carol left for work at 7:50 PM and I was left alone once again.

So here I sit at 10:24 AM with all the time in the world. I rather have time on my hands then be a slave to the dead machine Beast. Can we have too much personal freedom. Carol pays for my freedom. Carol pays for me to live in freedom from the howls of the Beast for my life blood.

This morning it is not raining but it is cold and windy. I am not sure yet if I want to go out into the world today.

I should try to get back into reading the novel “Middlemarch” this week.

It is a terrible thing for a professing Christian to sin with a high hand.

I was telling Carol last night Christians and non-Christians do not fully realize how much God hates sin. If we want to see how much God hates sin we must go to the Cross of Christ. It was at the Cross that the Lord took on Himself our sins and suffered the wrath of God for them. “God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.” 2 Corinth. 5:21; “When Christ came as high priest of the good things that are already here, he went through the greater and more perfect tabernacle that is not man-made, that is to say, not a part of this creation. He did not enter by means of the blood of goats and calves; but he entered the Most Holy Place once for all by his own blood, having obtained eternal redemption.” Hebrews 9:11-12.

Well it is now 10:44 AM I suppose I should close to read my books and pray for repentant heart.

Interview with John Updike October 2008

http://video.nytimes.com/video/2009/01/28/books/1231546423876/john-updike-a-life-in-letters.html?

the LORD is my light and my salvation

Psalm 27

1 The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and fell.
3 Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident.
4 One thing have I desired of the LORD, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to inquire in his temple.
5 For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock.
6 And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in his tabernacle sacrifices of joy; I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the LORD.
7 Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
8 When thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto thee, Thy face, LORD, will I seek.
9 Hide not thy face far from me; put not thy servant away in anger: thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation.
10 When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.
11 Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies.
12 Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.
13 I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.
14 Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.